Asvsalamualaikum
Wow! It has been a long time since I last have any words written in my 'story-crave' blog. Well, actually there is a lot to say, but I was mighty busy with my life as a matured PhD student. I am glad to say that I am nearing the end of my slightly turbulence (the hiccups I encountered in my study is peanuts in comparison to some other students) PhD journey. Nonetheless, I am still far from the end. After almost 3.5 years in not-so-smooth sail, I managed to finish up the first draft of all the 6 chapters of my thesis just recently before reporting to work this coming 17th April, 2016. Such a relieve! But really? In truth, I need a lot more time to polish my thesis. Nevertheless, for now, I just want to relax and unwind my brain from thinking about my thesis. Let my mind rest for a while before progressing into the next phase of my PhD voyage.
Tracing back 3.5 years ago, I felt that I haven't been spending enough time into my PhD. Prior to my status as a student, quite a number of times I attended courses in preparing myself into the reality of being a PhD student. There was a lot of tips of do's and don'ts of PhD study. Being an avid person, I tried to conform to the advice of the gurus. Thus, I set my mind that I shall finish my PhD in four years time, latest. I started to schedule my time accordingly hoping that I would be able to discipline myself. Unfortunately, things were not as easy as I envisioned for my PhD process. There was a lot more to the factual of life than the wisdom of those who have acquired their PhD.
Most often than not, I had difficulty to stick to my planned schedule. There was always a devil in me which kept on luring my attention into doing some other unrelated tasks at hand. As much as I wanted to fight the war within myself, I always got defeated by my own laziness. The plague of my intellect being even slowed me down with regret and uncertainty. At one point, I regretted my decision to embark into the unfamiliar facade of the PhD world. The most deadening moment was when I continuously pondered into my PhD path in everything I did, such as during eating, sleeping, outing and even private moment in the bathroom. It was sickening to the core to dwell on my PhD at all times. I just couldn't stop putting off the word "PhD' from my living self. But do I have a choice. Nobody forced me to join the world of PhD 'travelers'. The decision was entirely taken up by me because the need to upgrade my knowledge had overcome any hint of negativity associated with PhD process. I kept on telling myself "If someone can do it, so do I, In Sha Allah"
Actually, there is more to share in this post but I am too tired to continue. Maybe later ....
Till the next post.
Adios...
